Post by BeautifulDreamer on Jul 2, 2010 9:59:57 GMT -5
i just realized how much i have changed. not just in the past few years but in the past few weeks. i find it easier to be myself. even to strangers but just not as much as i am with my friends. i find myself to be more reliable. more grown up. except that is the self that i don't even show my friends because that is not the true me. now i find it hard to believe that i was who i was. that i acted the way i acted. that i used to be a down right bitch. looking at myself now all of the thing i do and say. the way i actually CARE for my friends feelings. now my attitude is if something is wrong i HAVE to fix it. i used to only fix my own problems i didn't care about anybody except myself. i remember clearly all the friends i drove away. and i look back and people that loathed me are now my best friends. i used to hate having to explain every little thing now i love to teach. i used to hate waiting, now my philosophy is the longer you wait they more you shall have, and the better it shall be. i hated reading least of all writing now my biggest goal in life is to get my book published. i used to love my self and was vary selfish. now i hate myself at times more than i like myself, and help my friends or try to so they don't have to go through what i did. i am vary oblivious so if something is going on and it is not obvious like you aren't screaming it at me or hiding in a corner on your own or laying down in pain i will not know that something is wrong. and best of all i don't think i spelled a word wrong and i didn't use spell check. LOL
that was vary long sorry just had to get it out.
that was vary long sorry just had to get it out.
